Girl Lee.

Thank You

2011-03-30T22:19:00.003+11:00

Dear Mummy and Daddy,

You are both asleep and I have nothing to do. Well, I have sort of nothing to do.... but you see, I've wanted to do this for quite awhile now because well it is quite important and it means alot to me. Anyways, what I just wanted to do is to show some appreciation for what you both have done for me. I feel like I have won the lottery of life with you guys and I feel truly blessed everyday for the many things you do for me.

Whether it is through the simple things like cooking a meal or picking me up every single day, Daddy I want you to know that I really appreciate you every single day even though I don't show it. Thank you for being a strong hold, a provider and protector in our lives. Your selflessness never ceases to amaze me and I know that I would be a very happy girl if my husband were half the man you are now. So, Thank you :)

Mummy, I know that you worry about John and I lots and I love that you do take the time to toil over countless university websites and job application sites so that we don't have to. I know that you love seeing us grow and succeed and I promise to work hard so that you will see us do so. I love that you are a doctor and that you love your job. There is no doubt in my mind that you are indeed a source of inspiration for me. Your experience and wisdom about the medical field is so interesting and precious to me ! So, Thank you :)

Anyways, I know that you have both sacrificed lots for me and have probably showered me with one too many blessings (seriously) . So, I hope you don't worry too much about where these 'blessings' are going because I assure you that I am trying my hardest to make both of you proud at the end of the day. And... thats all for now. :)

Love,

Jane

Someone Else's Heart

2011-01-24T14:42:00.000+11:00

The universe declares

2010-10-24T23:49:00.005+11:00

Loved being reminded of the simplicity of worship today.

All it took was a guitar, a beautiful day and people who were willing to trade in their 'wants' to acknowledge their 'needs'

Even Facebook thinks so

2010-10-22T19:45:00.001+11:00

For an optimist, I'm feeling pretty pessimistic

2010-10-21T19:01:00.005+11:00

Its 7pm and the sun is still out. I have my boxer shorts on, a bowl of chocolate ice cream in hand and nothing much to look forward to in the next couple of weeks except a bunch of exam papers. God. help. me. Ok, so that's not so bad after all. In fact, bring it on. I can't wait to get this over and done with. I wish I were in the shoes of the current... I mean ex-Year 12s. I can't believe I have another year left of this cra..... I mean awesomeness.. Ok, I'm just making it too big of a deal. Its all fine ! Everything. is. fine.

Wow, for an optimist, I'm feeling pretty pessimistic. Oh damn, sounds like a song right out of Paramore....BADUMM.... And so begins my Hayley Williams rant.

So, for the past day or two, all I've read on Twitter and Facebook was Paramore this, Hayley Williams that and to be honest I've never REALLY been a fan of Paramore.... UNTIL NOW. Seriously, if you know me well enough you would know that if I find someone worth stalking, I go ALL THE WAY. And when I say all the way, I mean ALL THE WAY. I can spend hours, days or even weeks stalking that one person from their fashion, to their religion, to EVERY SINGLE INTERVIEW they have online.

Well, this time the unlucky victim was Hayley Williams. Now, if you know Hayley Williams as much as I do NOW ;) you would know that she's pretty much the coolest person ...ever. Fashion wise, who doesn't love a chick that wears a t-shirt 90% of the time whilst wearing her hair in a crazy colour and still looks good doing it. Attitude wise, she's so sweet and honest even when she's trying to be all 'rockery' ( that is one fail made up word ) But what is truly most interesting of all is that in spite of all her rocker chic persona and crazy rock concerts/tours she still manages to keep her faith strong and genuine. Yes, surprise, surprise she is in fact a Christian and so is the rest of her band. Its always a pleasant surprise for me when I uncover such things and more often than not, I do find myself feeling totally stoked about having such a kind, cool, and generally awesome person sharing the same beliefs that you do, until of course you find a topless photo of her on the internet.

OH DAMN... thats right your airy fairy bubble is now broken about awesome Christian celebrities and integrity and stuff like that .Well if that's not what you're feeling now, lets just say that was the exact feeling I had a half hour ago x2. Seriously, why can't nice Christian celebrities just keep being all awesome and nice and innocent . Yeah I'm talking to you MILEY CYRUS.... =.=

Jokes a side, I guess the thing is, is that at the end of the day, people do mess up and people do act rashly but the best part about it is that in Christ, we have the opportunity of getting right back up and starting a fresh again. I'm sure Hayley regrets, well taking the photo because her phone was technically hacked into and complicated stuff of that sort so I'm not gonna say much more about that. Lets just hope she keeps being the person we thought she always was and will be because she does seem like a really genuine person who respects God and keeps her faith.

The thing I really wanted to say at the end of all this is that, its really so so very easy for us to mess up, so be wary of what you do and if you still end up in bits and pieces, I just hope that you know there's always a way out of it in Christ :)

Click on link below for Hayley's-semi testimony thingy....wikianswers ftw.

Hayley Williams

Well obviously....

2010-10-17T00:48:00.001+11:00

I dont say this enough but you are amazing :) i know people tend to underestimate your career and stuff but i know for a fact that its totally tough stuff and stuff i wouldnt wanna do at 4am in the morning. Its true nurses are the people who will keep you alive. Especially when the doctors are busy talking about HON and star craft. Well congratulationsss for finishing your first two weeks worth of night duty :D im totes proud of you. Also, i love you and our fun times :) my weekend would be empty without you in it and i will never try to replace you with people that have names that might rhyme with yours especially if it starts with 'T' :P so ya... i think i'll go listen to some SBS now... ilysrhwng X)

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New

2010-10-02T23:46:00.004+10:00

Ephesians 4

^20-24But that's no life for you. You learned Christ! My assumption is that you have paid careful attention to him, been well instructed in the truth precisely as we have it in Jesus. Since, then, we do not have the excuse of ignorance, everything—and I do mean everything—connected with that old way of life has to go. It's rotten through and through. Get rid of it! And then take on an entirely new way of life—a God-fashioned life, a life renewed from the inside and working itself into your conduct as God accurately reproduces his character in you.

God, may your light shine the brightest in my darkest hours.

I need you.

I love you.

Yah so....

2010-09-14T18:28:00.002+10:00

Meet the new baby ! Its working great and keeps on revealing new surprises here and there. AND, it supports the Adobe flash player which is an uber plus in my books. The design is slick, the display is crisp and it is quite the awesome :)

Also, its the HOLIDAYS !!! Waking up at 10 every morning is excellent although I do find myself becoming tired more quickly. Insanity doesn't help much although it gives me something to look forward to during the day besides MORE further maths notes. Rewriting an entire note book is not very fun at all.

What is insanity ?

BAM ! Its pretty ridiculous .... and thats really all I have to say about it. Lol, it is not for the weak at heart. By the end of these 60 days I'm definitely looking forward to my thunder thighs and tank-ness...

Also, I'm going to Beijing for a week ! Looking forward to blending into my surroundings for a little bit, although hanging around in Melbourne Central does seem to have the same effect. John and I managed to pick out a whopping total of SEVEN Aussies out of the hundreds of Asians that must've been under the Melbourne Central clock last weekend. I feel sorry for the Aussies, they are being invaded by migrants left right and center and they don't even know it . Everything is about the 'boat people' and whales and rangas. Little do they know about the rapid influx of little Asian ninjas into their land. Well they do sing about their "boundless plains to share" whilst the Chinese sing of 'building the Great Wall' and 'roaring with defiance', surely theres something wrong with that picture. Come on Aussies ! On your bikes. You're being invaded ! Watch that show that you're all so proud of 'Tomorrow when the war began', pick up some ninja skills there, at least you'll know how to defend yourselves then.

Ok, that was a completely pointless rant. This is what the holidays will do to you. Happy Holidays everyone !

Stress is when

2010-09-09T22:46:00.002+10:00

- its 11pm and you haven't started studying for your further Sac that is on the next day

- you have a Biol sac after that Further sac and you haven't started studying that either

- you're a week behind in Indo homework D:

- you're trying to plan a Sunday School carnival in 3 days and no one knows whats happening and you're hoping that a white boy in a wacky clown suit that can juggle will save you.

apart from that.... I really have nothing to worry about :D I'm living the simple life remember. teehee. have a great weekend guys !

Hazy crazy days

2010-08-12T21:57:00.003+10:00

Its been a full month since I last posted. That's just kind of pathetic isn't it ? Considering the fact that I spend half my time on the webzz reading blogs and expecting atleast one of them to be updated frequently enough for me to not get bored and not have enough time to update my own. Maybe my life is just THAT uneventful.

As far as I can remember, which is sadly not very far, the only recollection I have of the past month would be heart ache and getting my Biol exam results and Aj rafael and INCEPTION, epic movie. The rest are hazy memories that pretty much, reflect my life at present. Hazy and blurry and quick. There has just been school and school and SAC and exams and results and study and not study and planning this and planning that and all sorts of things relating to that one tragic and inevitable challenges of life and that is the pursuit of happiness. Tragic, necessary, infectious, purposeful, useless, call it what you may but we all know it, we all want it and too often we are sucked into the terrible vortex of this pursuit with that one and only goal in mind, needlessly seeking a fantastic end result only to be dissapointed at how superficial the single grade looks on that piece of white paper. Such is life isnt it.

Don't get me wrong, it is a good mark, a great mark in fact and i'm certainly very grateful but if theres one thing for me to take from this year, it is that every event counts for something. Yes, look into the future. Yes, don't mull over the past. But always treasure what you have at present. I feel like i've been sprinting through life this year. Eyes on the prize, hold your breath, GO. But as the cliche goes, its truly the journey that counts in the end. Time to let life take its course. I must admit that i have never been such a person. I think ive always had a plan. Never a plan written in stone but ive never been one for spontanaity and surprises. Which might explain why none of my supposed 'surprise parties' has ever worked. I JUST NEED TO KNOW. Ive never mulled over the past but there have been memories to be cherished. Regrets and mistakes are simply deleted into the memory recycle bin and emptied occasionally. But heck, life is full of seasons isn't it. Why not start one now.

With that said, I jane lee, do solemly swear to cherish, life. For better or for worse, in richness and in poverty, in sickness or in health. For good results or failures, through loneliness or in love. :)

In other news, i had my first near death experience last monday. Apparently i am severely allergic to nurofen and other pain killers. It is my kryptonite ! I under went the whole shebang, had to get adrenalin jabs, oxygen and other stuffs. It was scary but totally cool at the same time. Biology > physics any day.
Also, my side of the world has been raining bucket loads lately and there are literally raging rivers along the countryside now. Def a sight to behold and makes the drives up and down so much more interesting. I like the country at this time of the year. Everythings so alive and vibrant. Although i would much appreaciate it if the rain could stop now. Too much of a good thing is a bad thing as they say.
40 hr famine is up and running, im really enjoying the organisational role i have in it. If you want to donate just contact me on facebook or something and we can hook you up :)

Looking fwd to :
Aj rafael 2nd meet and greet
40 hr famine sawsageee sizzle
China trip !
Departure of yr 12s next term X)

So Close

2010-07-19T21:51:00.001+10:00

I'm afraid that if I want anything too much,

it'll mean I'll never have it.

The truth is

2010-07-19T21:47:00.002+10:00

As much as I'd hate to admit it, all I really need to say is I miss you.

No matter

2010-07-06T09:31:00.003+10:00

No matter who you are.

No matter your interests or dreams.

No matter if you're near or far.

No matter if you're male or female.

No matter if you're 50 or 10.

No matter your past nor your future.

When you love God. You love the people that love Him too.

So, come deep and meaningfuls and come laughter and pain. We've got that one thing that surpasses all.

Because what we have is eternal.

In His love, we are eternal.

Gravity

2010-07-05T21:47:00.000+10:00

-Sara Bareilles-

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

That's where I want to stay

2010-07-02T23:10:00.000+10:00

Ok, I really don't wanna seem uber holy, cause I'm on a spiritual high after camp or anything but seriously how true is this message ? Can you imagine the epic-ness that would come out of just living this lifestyle of worship and not needing to be coaxed into a 'mood' of worship, but just being in the mood of worship even before Sunday morning comes. We are called to be 'presence people'. People that not only worship on Sunday mornings and Friday nights in God's presence but people LIVING in God's presence every single day. I'm not saying its easy, I'm just saying that I'm trying. I am however afraid that this is only but a 'spiritual' phase that I'm in, that this 'phase' will soon come to pass when school starts and theres everything else except God on my mind. Thats what I'm afraid off, but I'm trying. ;)

Fully Inspired For Action

2010-06-30T23:38:00.003+10:00

^12-14I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back.

Philippians 3:13-14 (MSG)

Camp was amazing. I told mum and dad today that I honestly felt like it couldn't have gone any better. The weather was perfect, the people were great, there was unity and love, expecting hearts and motivated souls. Every plan was executed smoothly and safely, and beyond all this, there was break through, conviction of souls and life changing moments all through out the camp. All these things I believe are accredited to the one that truly put all these things together, our Lord Jesus Christ.

The best camp yet. Is it really because the committee was more organised, or because there were better games or a better campsite ? These factors may have contributed to the overall result, but I believe it was really through God's divine appointment and through His special timing that all these things had come together so perfectly. From the beginning we were inspired and expectant to what God had in store for us. Corporate prayer led by Jem truly motivated and united us all to focus on the goals we wanted to reach for camp.

I told mom and dad, that the sessions felt like the highlight of the camp for us. Our worship sessions were intense and the presence of God was undeniable every-single-night. The songs that I had sung and played so many times before felt like it had gained a completely different meaning overnight and during the sermons, I hung on every word that was said by the speakers believing that God had something to tell us and He obviously, did not disappoint.

I was personally touched and impacted by the spirit in so many remarkable ways through out the camp. I believe God truly had a plan for me during that time, He revealed to me His sovereign power, His undeniable love and His faithfulness to me and my future. I also received the gift of tongues, something that I had always struggled to fully grasp the concept of up until this camp, not because Olgar talked about it (because she didn't) but because I sincerely felt God telling me to reach out for more, to believe for more. Having this gift doesn't make me more of a Christian then I was before, but I think it has opened a different perspective of my worship and walk with God. I love it and I can't get it enough of it.

As a fellow Impacter, I believe that this camp is only the tip of the iceberg as to what God has in store for our youth group and our plans for the future. Change, is what we wanted. Change, is what we're going to get. Again, I'm not saying that we 'have this all together' but I believe after this camp, our perspectives have been aligned towards our 'goal, where God is beckoning us onward to Jesus' so lets get off and running, and not turn back. Amen ?? A-MEN :)

Little steps

2010-05-23T22:44:00.002+10:00

After 3 weeks of being amidst the sniffle germs, thank you Lord for keeping me sniffle free and healthy and well :)

You're My Person

2010-05-18T23:41:00.005+10:00

Sarah Wong

21 years old on the 19th of May 2010

Generally associated with the following things :-

Boys

-beloved -jupiter –hunny –cereal –home wrecker –religion section –dy –same person –launderette etc..(because it is ON going )(BECAUSE we hawt)

Fan Girls

-HSM –Kenny Ortega –Gilmore girls –Greys –relient k –John Mayer –Tswizzle –Edward –Jon Mclaughlin –Alexis Bledel –Poxon –Tanya –Wongfu

Placements and Jobs

-Ballarat of the stolen baby –Beach town of the mcd 6am breakfasts –St Vs who LOOKS SO DUMB RIGHT NAOO – safeways of the DY and hot italians –clarendon of the crazy patients

Gifts

Blue Play doh –black chair –taylor swift –babbitt and pig –honey –mixed cds –gilmore girls –john mayer in REAL LIFE who sang to ME -wigs of the golden variety –letters –Nerfs –curtis stone cook books –BAKED BROWNIE CAKES –panda phones –cupcakes –puzzled faces –itouch you burrehs –lappies –and awesomeness in a box (as you can see our gifts, like wine keep growing better with age.I’m expecting a car next year ;) ) JKS

Bonding Times

jerp love notes –pranks at the easter camp –milk –wasted petrol –unnecessary roadtrips –champagne gold ‘not that I’m drinking or anything’ –dancing in the moonlight –epic bonding times at treasured possessions –love confessions x9345 -sleepovers that did not involve sleep –food – dondon –uni assignment dramas –‘tough times’-mbro surprise visits-calling in sick at safeways for first time everrr -deodarising boys dorm rooms -24 hour Kmart –more stayup overs –juwita suwito –stalking and adding of other peoples various partners, of all whom are mostly creepy/noncreepy/annoying/ugly/douchey/commonfaced/stupidfaced/poofaced/nice –zefrontisdalehudgensortega stalking-slow dancing–morning messages –I am cow and cow refrences –giving each other exactly same gifts for Christmas 08’ –sharing same….~~monthly cycles~~… -wedding colour schemes –long and possibly –RETURN of long and possibly –trionicles aka.bionicles but THREEE -spoons that are toooo big -handling the jelly -HIJAB -fake gangsta tattoos-Acute Tubular Necrosis -and eating some more

Little things that really count

–waking up and being ttly inappropriate in bed –getting tutored –hating boys that I love but are total douches-then liking the boys cause I like them -airport adventures -highlighting blogposts for hidden meaning –huggles when I’m bawling my eyes out or just needa hug, virtual or non virtual –picking me up and dropping me off at the busiest times of the day –knowing all your closest friends-being the person your father calls when he can't find you-hour long phone calls –driving all the way back to torquay just coz I was upset and things of that sort

I guess through it all, we’ve only grown closer and closer and maybe almost to the point where we might be a little bit TOO close and a little bit TOO inappropriate :P I hope we don’t get too close and get sick of each other though, cause its true I don’t think I can live without you in my life as cheesy as that sounds X) You’ve always been my punching bag, my rock, a source of comfort, my 'person' and my big sister. I know as much as we continue to piss each other off for not talking/texting/calling each other after ONE WHOLE DAY or when we forget certain important dates or just being a fail friend and not writing an epic speech, I know we’ll love equally and sincerely through it all. Through all your transitions in life from the first year of uni, placements, last year of uni, soon-to-be graduation, work, being old and everything in between I hope that I’ve been as good a friend and sister and loverrrr as you have been to me cause I couldn’t ask for more .

Sarah Wong, you’re gorgeous, generous, crazy, caring, genius, selfless, brave and an absolute delight to spend every weekend with. I love you and I can’t wait to share in all that is in store for you in the future, ie; MARRIAGE, BABIES, and things of that sort. Soooo….

HAPPY 21^st BIRTHDAY PRINCESS !!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

and the following are pictures of ME ...with sarah in them. :P just couldn't help myself

epitome of pure awesomeness... right THERE

Fairy Floss Dreams

2010-05-17T17:00:00.012+10:00

This is fairy floss.

Light, fluffy and sweet.

This, is a dream...

WAIT.

THIS is a dream...

Right now, this dream feels like fairy floss.

Light, fluffy and sweet..

Easy, reasonable and achievable...

But then again, who am I kidding.

We all know as soon as you get into a good bite of sweet fairy floss, it dissolves and it disappears and you are left with nothing except the sweet after taste of something that used to be.

In that same way, I feel like this 'dream' is about to dissipate and be no more, leaving me with something less sweet and something less undesirable, something along the lines of bitter regret and failure.

So, difficult

so, unrealistic

so, unachievable

-Death by cotton candy-

By Visual Artist Daniela Edburg

Welcome to the life of the not so awesome sauce

2010-05-16T18:16:00.006+10:00

Hello fellow invitees, I've made this blog private (for now) cause I think I've been holding back/not blogging because I feel like I always need to put on this facade of how great I'm going and how awesome my life is, just because I know my parents are reading it and you know how parents can become when they know something is wrong, they try to help but that 'help' becomes a lecture and so on. So, as my very exclusive group ;) , I invite you to my sometimes not so awesome life, of rants and hurt and sometimes a whole lot of frustration but don't worry I'm not depressed or anything. It's just nice to rant sometimes. You know ?

But then again, not everything on this blog will be emo and *imma-eat-your-face-coz-im-pissed-off* kinda scary...

In fact, most of the time it would probably be filled up by these little guys ...

Have a great week guys :)

I've got another plan, this time it will work.

2010-05-16T17:21:00.004+10:00

Exam Preparation plans

16-22nd May

Biology chap 1,2 &3

1 Biol Prac Exam

23-29th May

Biology chap 4,5 &6

2 Biol Prac Exam

30-3rd June

Biol chap 7 &8

5-7th June

Biol Prac Exams

8th June

BIOL UNIT 3 Exam

*this looks so much more daunting in black and white. Pray for me !

Term 3 Resolutions

-lose 3 kg

-11pm sleep curfew

Teasers

2010-05-05T10:33:00.003+10:00

Currently listening to 'Hug on the Inside'

It almost sounds selfish to keep wanting what others have not had in years or ever in their lives, a 'hug on the inside'. One thing I've truly learned from this epic month is how amazingly blessed I am and how some are so much more deprived than I am. It scares me to think that I've been so oblivious to some of my closer friends that have been lacking the love that I so freely and selfishly enjoy. Time to share ? I think so.

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Speaking of epic month, I simply cannot put such awesomeness to a single blogpost that will truly justify how amazing it has truly been, but I will try.

First lets list some events:
- The asian flash mob that was the birthday of ichan
- The 48 hours with the wong after TOOOO long and expensive shopping sprees
- The fail of Jont party crash
- The Torquay weekend birthday
- The 4 birthday cakes
- The belated gifts
- The epic release into womanhood of the wong
- The suwiirahjaney bestie sleepover
- THE JOHN MAYERHHH

Just some teasers, till the next post X)

i touch youu burreh

2010-04-19T18:54:00.001+10:00

love it :) thanking youss

heart

2010-04-18T02:34:00.003+10:00

older panda brothers that don't make you feel like a fool even though you feel like one.

Air hockey ftw :)

seriously, wtv all of you

Speed Dial #2

2010-04-11T21:49:00.003+10:00

Hie, I mish you. The Last Song, its a date.

Soak

2010-04-11T17:36:00.003+10:00

So, Manifest. I don't know how to explain what I've experienced but I think the video above would suffice for now. If you have the time, take that time to just listen to the words in the music and meditate and be still and experience God in these precious words. As I said, do it IF and only IF you have the time. This is definitely not one of those songs that you can casually listen to in the background. I hope you're blessed :)

Daddy's Little Girl

2010-03-21T22:34:00.003+11:00

that cliche, its true

i've got nothing to lose

when I have you

you're the best dad in the world

and i'm still and I will always be

daddy's little girl

I love you :)

Happy birthday Daddy !

Greece

2010-03-21T22:12:00.004+11:00

I want to go here

Greece baby. Bring it

Draw a Wrong-Japan-Inspired-Stick-Figure-As-a -Hat

2010-03-21T22:10:00.002+11:00

A day in the life

2010-03-17T09:44:00.004+11:00

Me, trying to keep this blog alive is like cookie monster trying to go on a fruit diet.

The lack of posts can hardly be blamed on my 'lack of time' although it sounds like a pretty valid excuse as I am a 'VCE' student. My lack of presence from the msn world is easily blamed on my nerrd-ness too but thats hardly the case. In fact, most of the time I'm really 'appearing offline' and just stalking you..... like normal people do.

This 'anti-social' way of living however,has become somewhat appealing to me,I am able to focus more on 'studies' and just more personal crazy time with the fam and even receive phone calls from certain graduate nurses. I still sleep at the same time and wake up at the same time but the day always seem more substantial when you're not aimlessly searching for things to do. Taylor Swift stalking does not count of course. She is necessary to life like cellular respiration is necessary for living organisms. Yes, I have a Biology Sac in 2 hours.

On that note, VCE so far has not been as taxing as I had expected it to be. To be honest, I do like the challenge even though the goals are often unrealistic and impossible for my capabilities, the outcome is always satisfying. Indonesian at the VSL centre is more fun than draining even though it still is a bit of a pain to get up early on a Saturday morning. Thats right, Saturdays. Shock Horror ! I even have a SAC on my birthday ! Brilliant. Besides that, I have been able to expand my friendship group (of whom are mostly Indonesian) there which is refreshing and quite exciting. VCE is nice ...now. Ask me again in 2 months.

I'm not entirely sure where I'm going with this so maybe I'll just go off now :)

Upcoming events :
Impact High Praise night
Easter Camp
Manifest Conference
work experience at the pharmacy.

Happy hollidays !

Kina Grannis

2010-02-23T21:35:00.000+11:00

Fire

2010-02-23T18:15:00.002+11:00

Keeping this blog alive is really starting to seem more like a chore now than a way to vent out my EMO-tions. No, this post is no more as interesting as the previous one but maybe a little bit more well thought out. More thought out in the sense that it wasn't constructed in 5 minutes while I was in the shower or day dreaming in class. It was more thought out in the sense that I wasn't able to sleep so I decided to think about random things instead. Yeh, I know right. THINK. Which should be more familiar to me at this point in my life than it really has been. So, what is this thought that I think I thought?

Well, through thorough reflection of my holidays in Malaysia and my life now, I recalled a memory from a game in camp. The game where in our teams we were instructed to build a fire with raw materials and match sticks in the middle of the night while being constantly bombarded by water bombs thrown by evil people at the same time.

This game was taxing, physically and mentally. First of all because we needed to build a fire in the dark. Secondly, because we were wet, tired and very annoyed. Lastly, because water is no friend to fire, and when your raw materials get completely drenched by it, you're pretty much screwed. After what seemed to be an eternity of smoke and water, our 'allies' were suddenly able to help us out at our base after successfully building their own fire. They self sacrificially defended the fire by building a pretty solid barrier around us with a 'die-die' spirit. Unfortunately, their efforts were in vain as the water kept coming until there seemed to be no more hope for our fire anymore. One brilliant 'allier' however thought that it would be smart if they 'transfered' fire from their fire to ours instead. An external source of fire, that was already built previously. BRILLIANT. Our fire was built... our enemies lost and the rest was history.

Now, how does this apply to my life or 'our lives' as teenagers at present ? Well, I believe this fire is something that I'm constantly struggling to keep alive . Those huge events in life that keep striking you from left, right and center like giant water bombs, keep killing even the littlest spark of hope in our lives and they just keep coming. Where it be a death, a bad exam mark, a fight, a break up or a difficult choice that you have to make, like water bombs, the bad things will keep coming. These things keep coming until that sliver of hope you thought you once had, becomes no hope at all and you're stuck in the dark, wet, cold and very very upset.

Your 'allies' however are your friends, those people who you've known for ages and would do anything for you like well defending your fire. Your fire, your emotions, your future, your heart, your health, your integrity, your spirituality.

Even though they are amazingly self sacrficial, they are still limited by their mortality and the 'water bombs' are still inevitable. What do you do now? FIRE. An external source ! One that has already been built up, raging with heat and life. In my life, this fire is God and when all things fail, it is He who transfers His fire into my life cause when everything is saturated in tears, in hurt and failure His fire is still strong enough to overcome all these things and keep it going.... and keep me going.

So, thats my thought.... that I didn't think up in the shower. I hope you're blessed :)

Deuteronomy 7:9

⁹ Know therefore that the LORD your God is God; he is the faithful God, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who love him and keep his commands.

A day

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-spent with noisy lovable churchies, best girls in the world, gorgeous sunday school kids and crazy family.

-where 90% of your money is spent on others instead yourself.

-when epic videos of best times of OUR lives are made

-when everyone seems that much happier and everyone seems just a bit more generous.

-when daddies and mummies are awesome and give you money/love

-when daddy teaches/tells you that you crazy and interesting for being excited about spending money on your new ATM card

-when mummy wraps your presents and gets her toe nails painted by you

-when doggy sleeps and barfs on your bed

-when mummy cleans up the barf

-when all the little things count

beats getting tacky chocolates from a boyfriend.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

embarassing but hilarious, no ?

The not-Murtaugh list, challenged.

2010-01-24T21:57:00.006+11:00

Challenge #1

Get on top of all home work and things I'm lacking behind in first week of school. Continue trend till the year end (y).

Challenge #2

Consistently do daily devotions and prioritize church responsibilities.

Challenge #3

Sleep before 1am on a school day.

Challenge #4

GET FIT.

(5.2km run)

(10km run)

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED.

Hungry - Kathryn Scott

2010-01-21T00:47:00.004+11:00

Hungry I come to You
For I know You satisfy
I am empty but I know
Your love does not run dry
So I wait for You
So I wait for You

I'm falling on my knees
Offering all my needs
Jesus You're all
This heart is living for

Broken I run to You
For Your arms are open wide
I am weary but I know Your touch
Restores my life
So I wait for You
So I wait for You

The reasons

2010-01-04T17:06:00.007+11:00

Dec 12th

The adventure begins or more like repeats again. To tell you the truth I dont think I was ready just yet for Malaysia. I was still in Australia mode at arrival. Suddenly, the signs were in malay and instead of Telstra ads there were Hotlink (note my favouritism) billboards everywhere. There were rundown traffic lights, cars that dont indicate when changing lanes and scary immigration dudes but despite of it all, always the same Uncle Fong patiently waiting to pick me up flustered and tired with, Sam the bear, my ukulele, my overweight luggage and all. Unc Fong is totally awesome.

Dec13th

Nothing is any different in Subang or I believe any hometown for that matter. True, there are those occasional weddings and that new house/mansion *coughsuleencough* and cars people always seem to get. But everyone is always essentially the same, same smile, same hair cut, same phone number, same warm hospitality and etc. Even the same people that you thought were still speaking on Sunday service last year but this year and in a different outfit but probably about the same thing and probably the same song with the same musicians playing the same song. Confusing ? (a bug totally just fell into my keyboard GAHHH)

Dec 14th- Dec 16th

Now, I'm back and what else is there to do in Malaysia than EAT and meet up with old friends and sing Party in the USA multiple times in different locations. Now its the 3rd day and I've actually done alot more than you think I have judging from this post. (I'm really just trying to recall all of this as we go along) Right, so its a Monday and I went ...shopping !! With Aunty Cindy and Liesl and the Tan clan where I also foolishly brought my passport along and resulted to chucking it in the car boot very inconspicuously. I am stealth. May I also add that Malaysians can spend their money. Yes their pay may be close to slavery for us youngins but we still very well know how to spend our money or so it seemed. I'm not complaining, more Christmas presents is always welcomed :D This shopping thing continued for the next 2 days along with some eating/ a lot of eating. Oh ! Yes the epic eating of 50 prawns by Jem and I. Lets not talk about that.. I feel sick already.

Dec 17th

The saga of the karaoke begins. A whole 8 hours worth of karaoke in the span of 48 hours. I am forever scarred but throughly entertained. Whats a get together without many laughs, excruciating screams and a video of 15+++ men dancing to Spice Girls very very passionately. ( This video is yet to be released )

Dec 18th

Dec 18th more commonly known as the day 4 innocent people got conned into 3 hours of opera/renaissance muzack and embarrassment for being under dressed. I admit it wasn't THAT bad. I guess we're just not that type. Handel's Messiah is a pretty renown thing and it was of very good quality. But for now I think these things are best left to the likes of Lily Vanderwoodsen and awkward Mr.Humphrey that probably use large words like supercalafragalistic when discussing the show.

Dec 19th-22nd

Camp ! I only echo the words of those who have graduated TRU or any youth for that matter that camps and big events do feel less significant as the years go by. Rather than always being on your toes for what game to expect next or 'cute' boys to eye on, everything is more predictable and normal. As you grow older I guess there is also that expectation of leading the younger ones, added pressure. Pressure meaning less fun. I don't know how the group leaders do it, it must be quite a burden especially when its an official role. For me, I'd rather work under the radar, no official role, no expectations, no check list. All good :) I came out of camp different from the rest. I wasn't on a spiritual high but a few basic and integral parts of this faith managed to stand out. These things weren't from the sermons however but from individual stories that I gathered from the camp. Gems you find along the way that give you that extra kick in the butt to go that one extra step.

Dec 23rd

Honestly, I have no idea what happened on this day. Post-camp sleep in I'm guessing and maybe some last minute shopping with the girls or actually maybe with the girl and the boy. I can never be sure :P Right, so I'm thinking it was the Carl's Jr day but I don't think so but I guess thats something to talk about anyways. Carl's Jr day was amazing. Des, Jund, Sel and I went out for our annual lunch thingo we somehow always manage to have every year, I guess its just tradition. Things don't change around here as I might have already pointed out. The four of us still have the same unawkward conversations about BGR from the Desmond Teoh who has still lasted being our kor kor /bigger brother from the stone ages(sunday school). Sadly, our conversations never really move far from that subject because who doesn't like talking about themselves. We lasted a good 2 hours and parted ways and all is good in love and Carl's Jr Portobello Mushrooms.

Dec 24th-Dec 25th

Which are essentially the same days. In fact, I believe that Christmas should be 48 hours. Its just completely inhumane to expect 6 billion people to suffer 364 days of the year to just wait for this one sacred day of absolute bliss. I think 2 days seems like a farer trade. Ok, maybe I'm exaggerating. Hey, I'm 16 :P (That should not be an excuse, do not fall for the "I'm 16" line! Soon you'll be completely broke, girlfriend-less and probably overseas.) (Ignore last bracket. I'm tired.)

YES, Christmas was fun. YES, we were completely drained from Christmas Eve as we always are. YES, there was an epic family dinner the night before. YES, it was pretty much the same to last year but that is what makes it so awesome X) YES, I have adopted the way of not saying "the Tans" because... I totally am a Tan :D A Tan pet...

Dec 26th- Dec 28th

My dog is fat. My mama was awesome. She still drives a manual car. We jabbed Winter's butt and he pooped outside the vet place. We had awesome food. The awesome food gave me food poisoning for half a week. Mama took care of me more than I did her. Curse you awesome food. I forgive you awesome food because you helped me lose weight. I miss mama. I wish I bought her more playing cards.

Dec 29th

Day 3 of food poisoning. 3rd day of not eating. First day of big dinner at the Teoh's. I ate half a burger. Actually, I think the fact that I wasn't eating and everyone else was, was more painful than the actual hunger pans on that day. So much sauce, so much butter, so much fatty-ness and I could not eat D: The horror. Not eating was definitely a good idea however because even the half burger I ate came back to bite me in my already gurgling/churning stomach which was no fun at all. Its ok fat, round Pengy was there. It brought much comfort.

Dec 30th

We're here already. The countdown had already begun, three more days till I leave happy land. One last big dinner at our place and I CAN EAT ! Not much though, I did manage to steal a cupcake and some very oily soft shelled crabs and ice kacang ftw. But on top of all that, it was the company that truly mattered. It is "the reason I come home" ala my blog soundtrack if you have not stalked me enough. It truly is the familiar howls of laughter and sheer nonchalant attitude to everything that keeps me going back. Like there was no need to worry, no need to be the best, no need to always try to impress. A family minus the lee ? fam i l y.. fam..i love you ? (Again... ignore the last line..its late)

Dec 31st

NOW PANIC !! So many things not done yet and people to meet and things to buy ! By 4 I had already visited 3 different set of friends and bought everything necessary for Australia. Time management. That's right folks. Its all about the time management and contacts and not forgetting people who can drive as your contacts ;P On your last day, forget about people who will be a pain to transport manage and... forget food. No, don't laugh. Food wastes time ! Who am I kidding.. just have your darn food but ALWAYS time manage and before you know it BAM ! You'll be able to have met Iishan, Cherlyn, Kelvin (by coincidence), Jem and fam, and Sayaka (that I totally more time too *sorrryyy*).

Jan 1st

If you're still reading this blogpost then CONGRATULATIONS !!! You have finally reached the end of this post. Yes, the last day. I had already seen it coming.. the day was finally here o.o (well 'the day' was inevitable but I just thought I would make it sound more dramatic) Anyway, Kat drove us (Jund, Sel, Hannah and I ) down to LCCT, which I must add is definitely not the most glamorous way to leave/migrate but if its just for another short trip.. who cares. If you are migrating however, I definitely suggest KLIA for a more spectacular and memorable farewell :P Now back to my last train of thought.. yes we arrived and checked in and played the ukulele all the way through the airport with much ease until we didn't feel very 'prosperous' any more. Yeh thats right. I"M FUNNY . No not really. I just thought the.. THE prosperity burger needed some sort of introduction.. I guess I was wrong.. I'm sorry :(

This last rant is already longer than I planned... Lets get to the point. After a wonderful last supper I said my goodbyes and there ended another special trip back to Malaysia :) but I will be back.. I guess it still and always will feel like home.

Another aeroplane

Another sunny place

I’m lucky, I know

But I wanna go home

Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home

I’m just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

(I took a week to come up with this post. So appreaciate it -.-)

Also special thanks to the Tan fam (U.Kim Sing, A.Cindy, Liesl, Kat, Jon) for being as awesome as ever and putting up with me/slob for those 3 weeks :)

Mochi Khoo-Lee (for now)

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The Khoo's have my dog. Well at least it'll be entertained.

Janey says:
is doggie peeing everywhere
i wanna see my doggie
u
how there u kidnap
oops
*dare
Lemuel says:
hahaha
nah
does he pee loads? oh no
what do i do to entertain him
i like
dont know what to do
Janey says:
hahaha.
u have to dance
and then juggle
srsly
Lemuel says:
ohhh
Janey says:
didnt my dad tell u tht
Lemuel says:
nah i was sleeping
okay imma do it now
thanks
Janey says:
then u have to do both at the same time
Lemuel says:
thats kinda difficult
illt ry my best

Nationals

2009-12-11T16:18:00.003+11:00

From bottom left; Melissa, Me, Georgie J, Lizzy, Mikaela, Georgie H, Claire, Caitlin

After living, breathing and dreaming volleyball, I'm finally home, tired but completely satisfied from this week. 4 loses and 4 wins in a national level is pretty good by our standard and we've had nothing but fun, 10 packets of instant noodles,Mr Tim guy at the reception, constipation from all the junk we've eaten, underwear, sexy bruises/battle scars, Zombieland and a whole lot of gossip girl. Its been one great week and I wouldn't have spent it any other way. Now, to Malaysia !!

Served some

2009-12-07T23:02:00.003+11:00

Hello, from the lobby of the cosmopolitan hotel in St Kilda ! Just a quick update on the games so far. We won the first game and lost the second :(

(The following is only for memory purposes) Yes, I did win 20 points from my serves in the second set. Yes, I am very happy. Yes, those points were probably a streak of luckiness. who cares :P

Thats it for now :) You can expect a bunch of bored looking girls around st kilda for the next couple of days if you plan to be down there to stalk me. DO IT. puhleaaaseee ? :(

Till then, toodless

I can't get it off my mind.

2009-12-01T19:38:00.003+11:00

Can you tell me how we got in this situation
I can't seem to get you off my mind
All these ups and downs
They trip up our good intentions
Nobody said this was an easy ride

After all, we're only human
Always fighting what we're feeling
Hurt instead of healing
After all we're only human
Is there any other reason
Why we stay instead of leaving
After all

Can we get back to the point in this conversation
Where we saw things through each other's eyes
Cause now all I see is ruin and devastation
We all need some place we can hide inside

After all, we're only human
Always fighting what we're feeling
Hurt instead of healing
After all we're only human
Is there any other reason
Why we stay instead of leaving

I'm smart enough to know that life goes by
And it leaves a trail of broken hearts behind
If you feel I'm letting go, just give me time
I'll come running to your side
Can you tell me how we got into this situation
I can't seem to get you off my mind

Nationals !

2009-12-01T18:39:00.003+11:00

Volleyball Schools Cup timetable is out and here it is for the first two days ! Stalk me :D

Monday