Hazy crazy days

Its been a full month since I last posted. That's just kind of pathetic isn't it ? Considering the fact that I spend half my time on the webzz reading blogs and expecting atleast one of them to be updated frequently enough for me to not get bored and not have enough time to update my own. Maybe my life is just THAT uneventful.

As far as I can remember, which is sadly not very far, the only recollection I have of the past month would be heart ache and getting my Biol exam results and Aj rafael and INCEPTION, epic movie. The rest are hazy memories that pretty much, reflect my life at present. Hazy and blurry and quick. There has just been school and school and SAC and exams and results and study and not study and planning this and planning that and all sorts of things relating to that one tragic and inevitable challenges of life and that is the pursuit of happiness. Tragic, necessary, infectious, purposeful, useless, call it what you may but we all know it, we all want it and too often we are sucked into the terrible vortex of this pursuit with that one and only goal in mind, needlessly seeking a fantastic end result only to be dissapointed at how superficial the single grade looks on that piece of white paper. Such is life isnt it.

Don't get me wrong, it is a good mark, a great mark in fact and i'm certainly very grateful but if theres one thing for me to take from this year, it is that every event counts for something. Yes, look into the future. Yes, don't mull over the past. But always treasure what you have at present. I feel like i've been sprinting through life this year. Eyes on the prize, hold your breath, GO. But as the cliche goes, its truly the journey that counts in the end. Time to let life take its course. I must admit that i have never been such a person. I think ive always had a plan. Never a plan written in stone but ive never been one for spontanaity and surprises. Which might explain why none of my supposed 'surprise parties' has ever worked. I JUST NEED TO KNOW. Ive never mulled over the past but there have been memories to be cherished. Regrets and mistakes are simply deleted into the memory recycle bin and emptied occasionally. But heck, life is full of seasons isn't it. Why not start one now.

With that said, I jane lee, do solemly swear to cherish, life. For better or for worse, in richness and in poverty, in sickness or in health. For good results or failures, through loneliness or in love. :)

In other news, i had my first near death experience last monday. Apparently i am severely allergic to nurofen and other pain killers. It is my kryptonite ! I under went the whole shebang, had to get adrenalin jabs, oxygen and other stuffs. It was scary but totally cool at the same time. Biology > physics any day.
Also, my side of the world has been raining bucket loads lately and there are literally raging rivers along the countryside now. Def a sight to behold and makes the drives up and down so much more interesting. I like the country at this time of the year. Everythings so alive and vibrant. Although i would much appreaciate it if the rain could stop now. Too much of a good thing is a bad thing as they say.
40 hr famine is up and running, im really enjoying the organisational role i have in it. If you want to donate just contact me on facebook or something and we can hook you up :)

Looking fwd to :
Aj rafael 2nd meet and greet
40 hr famine sawsageee sizzle
China trip !
Departure of yr 12s next term X)

So Close

I'm afraid that if I want anything too much,

it'll mean I'll never have it.

The truth is

As much as I'd hate to admit it, all I really need to say is I miss you.

No matter

No matter who you are.

No matter your interests or dreams.

No matter if you're near or far.

No matter if you're male or female.

No matter if you're 50 or 10.

No matter your past nor your future.

When you love God. You love the people that love Him too.

So, come deep and meaningfuls and come laughter and pain. We've got that one thing that surpasses all.

Because what we have is eternal.

In His love, we are eternal.

Gravity

-Sara Bareilles-

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

That's where I want to stay

Ok, I really don't wanna seem uber holy, cause I'm on a spiritual high after camp or anything but seriously how true is this message ? Can you imagine the epic-ness that would come out of just living this lifestyle of worship and not needing to be coaxed into a 'mood' of worship, but just being in the mood of worship even before Sunday morning comes. We are called to be 'presence people'. People that not only worship on Sunday mornings and Friday nights in God's presence but people LIVING in God's presence every single day. I'm not saying its easy, I'm just saying that I'm trying. I am however afraid that this is only but a 'spiritual' phase that I'm in, that this 'phase' will soon come to pass when school starts and theres everything else except God on my mind. Thats what I'm afraid off, but I'm trying. ;)

Fully Inspired For Action

^12-14I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back.

Philippians 3:13-14 (MSG)

Camp was amazing. I told mum and dad today that I honestly felt like it couldn't have gone any better. The weather was perfect, the people were great, there was unity and love, expecting hearts and motivated souls. Every plan was executed smoothly and safely, and beyond all this, there was break through, conviction of souls and life changing moments all through out the camp. All these things I believe are accredited to the one that truly put all these things together, our Lord Jesus Christ.

The best camp yet. Is it really because the committee was more organised, or because there were better games or a better campsite ? These factors may have contributed to the overall result, but I believe it was really through God's divine appointment and through His special timing that all these things had come together so perfectly. From the beginning we were inspired and expectant to what God had in store for us. Corporate prayer led by Jem truly motivated and united us all to focus on the goals we wanted to reach for camp.

I told mom and dad, that the sessions felt like the highlight of the camp for us. Our worship sessions were intense and the presence of God was undeniable every-single-night. The songs that I had sung and played so many times before felt like it had gained a completely different meaning overnight and during the sermons, I hung on every word that was said by the speakers believing that God had something to tell us and He obviously, did not disappoint.

I was personally touched and impacted by the spirit in so many remarkable ways through out the camp. I believe God truly had a plan for me during that time, He revealed to me His sovereign power, His undeniable love and His faithfulness to me and my future. I also received the gift of tongues, something that I had always struggled to fully grasp the concept of up until this camp, not because Olgar talked about it (because she didn't) but because I sincerely felt God telling me to reach out for more, to believe for more. Having this gift doesn't make me more of a Christian then I was before, but I think it has opened a different perspective of my worship and walk with God. I love it and I can't get it enough of it.

As a fellow Impacter, I believe that this camp is only the tip of the iceberg as to what God has in store for our youth group and our plans for the future. Change, is what we wanted. Change, is what we're going to get. Again, I'm not saying that we 'have this all together' but I believe after this camp, our perspectives have been aligned towards our 'goal, where God is beckoning us onward to Jesus' so lets get off and running, and not turn back. Amen ?? A-MEN :)